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Puerto Vallarta!

DamonZ — Sun, 27 Nov 2005 10:20:00 GMT

I've finally posted the pics from Puerto Vallarta! Enjoy! Please comment!

Interesting

DamonZ — Thu, 12 May 2005 10:21:00 GMT

Your Linguistic Profile:

75% General American English

20% Dixie

5% Upper Midwestern

0% Midwestern

0% Yankee

What Kind of American English Do You Speak?

Sorry!

DamonZ — Sun, 24 Apr 2005 09:57:00 GMT

Sorry it's been so long since I posted an update! Been busy with work, school and life!

I got sucked into this huge project on a strict timeline at work. It has 4 of the guys on our team working full time on it (there's only 6 of us!). I'm gonna be busy over the next week or two to get it wrapped up so it can move into testing. Phew.

As far as school goes, I'm taking a class called “Alternative Photogaphic Processes.” We're essentially doing two main processes in this class: Polaroid (both Emultion Lifts and Image Transfers), and Cyanotypes. Just yesterday we did our first take at the Cyanotypes (the last few weeks we had been preparing negatives to use). Then the storm came and took away our sun, and then the sprinklers came on and got everything all wet! So we called it a day and took stuff home to finish up.

Earlier this week, there was a call for submissions for a juried art show at the school. I entered two of my Polaroids (Cheryl and Yavapai County Courthouse). When I went to find out the results they told me I had won the Best of Photography award! I was so excited! They were in the process of hanging them at that point, so I gathered up my friend's one image that they didn't select to display and headed home. Yesterday when I showed up for our Cyanotype Saturday lab, I went and was scanning the list of artists to see who won the other prizes, I noticed that I also took the Best of Show prize! I was (and still am) so excited! If you're interested in viewing them, they are in the Scottsdale Comm. College Art Building (AB). The main lobby has several works, and mine are right around the corner as you start down the hall. They will be on display until Aug. 22.

Anyhow, hopefully I'm gonna start writing more frequently, I've been bad about it lately. Toodles!

Catching Up!

DamonZ — Thu, 06 Jan 2005 22:52:00 GMT

A few quick notes!

1) Pictures from November's trip to Rocky Point are now online.

2) Microsoft has released a beta of their new anit-spyware program. Check it out.

3) I had a *BLAST* in Houston for NYE, and those pics should be going up before too long. I can't wait to go back in a couple weeks for K&J's wedding! ;)

Someone HELP me!

DamonZ — Sun, 15 Aug 2004 22:57:00 GMT

Have you ever found someone who the more time you spend with, the more you want to in the future? Someone who the more you learn about, the more you want to know? Someone where everytime you have to leave, it gets harder and harder exponentially?

I have.

And let me just say it is so absolutely wonderful.

Yet, here I am finding myself in tears because she's not here with me tonight. I miss her so, so, so much, and its only been 5 1/2 hours since I've seen her. 3 1/2 since I've talked to her. And yet, I feel I can't live without her.

It has been so long since I've cared so much about someone that it really really hurts. I feel so empty right now. So alone.

And it is one of the most terrible feelings in the world.

I don't even know what to do now.

A part of me wants to curl up in bed, but that too reminds me of her. A part of me says to stay out of the bedroom, but there are little reminders of her everywhere. I haven't been this happy in so very long, nor have I been so sad in almost as long.

Well, I guess I should try to find a way to sleep... somehow...

That which doesn't kill me, makes me stronger

DamonZ — Tue, 13 Jul 2004 20:42:00 GMT

Warning: Stream of Consciousness Post ahead....

So there's a question that I asked myself earlier today, that I think I finally have an answer to. The answer is, “I don't know, but I want to find out.” The question is, “What do I want?”

I don't want to repeat the past, but it seems at a point, you might be endangering the future if you dwell on the past too much. And I think I'm about at that point. At some point, you just gotta tell yourself, “LET IT GO!”

I have often times discovered that when presented with a problem, the best thing to do is not to focus all of your attention on the problem at hand, but rather do something to let your mind wander. Without actively engaging the problem, the solution frequently surfaces on its own. I was reading tonight, and came across the following: “A little faith can do wonders, Captain. A little faith.” When I read that, a thought struck. Maybe I just don't have enough faith in myself. Maybe I'm trying too hard. Maybe I just need to let go, and see if the problem will solve itsself.

So, “What do I want?” That's a tough question to answer. Let's start out with the general. What do I want out of life? What is the point of it all? First and foremost, I want to be happy. Okay great, but what does that really mean? Am I happy now? In general, no. I'm content. Close to happy, but not quite. I'm most certainly not unhappy. So that is good. Why am I not happy? I feel like I'm standing still again. At least I'm not going backwards this time. Actually, let me change my story. Lets put the frame of reference back a couple weeks (because, the catalyst for all of this is because of the last couple of weeks!).

Anyhow, what do I want? I want a good job. Why? So I can do the thigns I love to do. I'm extremely happy with my job (with the exception of the on-call duty, which really is the only part of my job i truly dislike). Why do I need a job though? It allows me to do what I want to do. Whatever that may be. Lately, that has been to go down to Tucson every few days. What else do I want? Need? Well, Honestly, I want to fall in love. I know it sounds sick, but I do. And why is that? That's because I want a family. I want people around me who I unconditionally love, and who unconditionally love me. Is that so much to ask for? Isn't that what we all really want?

Well, why the hell don't I have that? What am I doing wrong? Am I too picky? Am I too hard on myself? Do I not try hard enough? Where is the breakdown here?

As you may or may not know, I DON'T DATE! I hate dating. There is too much social pressure. In my opinion, it is a waste of time. All dating does is spend money. Therefore, even when I have a “date” it's not a date. I DON'T DATE. I hang out. Why? Because when I find that special someone that I'm looking for, do I want her to be a “date?” No. I want her to be my best friend. The best friend I've EVER had. Someone I'm not afraid to be *ME* around. Someone I'm not afraid to tell *EVERYTHING* to. Someone I am comfortable around, no matter what situation surrounds us. This is why I don't date.

So, have I ever found anyone that I've been that comforatable around? Yes. And what happened? I fell madly, deeply, truly in love. It didn't work. She broke my heart. I slid into a deep, scary depression.

Will I ever find someone else that I'm that comfortable around? Yes. When? The scary thing is, I think I've already found her. I keep saying that all my red-flags have gone off, and that I've overcome them. And I have. And yet, I still think they are going off all the time. WHY? Why won't they leave me alone?

Which brings me back to: Maybe I just don't have enough faith in myself. Maybe I'm trying too hard. Maybe I just need to let go, and see if the problem will solve itsself.

:)

DamonZ — Sun, 11 Jul 2004 01:34:00 GMT

Tramps & Thieves kicked ass tonight (as usual)! A little rough around the edges, but most definitely a great time! I *LOVE* Dave Insley's new band, and I can't wait for the new cd. And, Tom Gilliam, who i've seen only once before was awesome (what little i did hear tonight)...

I had a wonderful time tonight. Ashbrook last night was also a great time. I think I got a couple people converted to fan status! :)

I'm so looking forward to sleeping in again tomorrow... And *DAMN* I wanna go to Tucson, even if only for a little while... Gotta think about that one for a little bit... ;) Anyhow... bedtime...

I can't help it!

DamonZ — Mon, 05 Jul 2004 16:30:00 GMT

I really can't! I've been grinning ear-to-ear all day, and I can't stop! :D I blame Frank! And Sally!

I'm in Heaven!

DamonZ — Thu, 01 Jul 2004 22:56:00 GMT

Tonight, Celebrity Poker Showdown... The last two players: Maura Tierney & Lauren Graham! *YUMMY* Ok, I promise I'm going to bed immediately after this is over!

Wonderful!

DamonZ — Thu, 24 Jun 2004 22:24:00 GMT

So, I mis-quoted this a little bit earlier, but the meaning was the same:

“El que mucho se despide, pocas ganas tiene de irse.”

Its a phrase a good friend of mine taught me years ago. It translates roughly to: “Those who say they have to go often, rarely want to leave.”

It's such a beautiful expression, that I've remembered somehow. One of the best uses of Spanish I can remember on a constant basis.