Sudden Confusion

Have you ever found someone who the more time you spend with, the more you want to in the future?  Someone who the more you learn about, the more you want to know?  Someone where everytime you have to leave, it gets harder and harder exponentially?

I have. 

And let me just say it is so absolutely wonderful. 

Yet, here I am finding myself in tears because she's not here with me tonight.  I miss her so, so, so much, and its only been 5 1/2 hours since I've seen her.  3 1/2 since I've talked to her.  And yet, I feel I can't live without her. 

It has been so long since I've cared so much about someone that it really really hurts.  I feel so empty right now.  So alone. 

And it is one of the most terrible feelings in the world.

I don't even know what to do now. 

A part of me wants to curl up in bed, but that too reminds me of her.  A part of me says to stay out of the bedroom, but there are little reminders of her everywhere.  I haven't been this happy in so very long, nor have I been so sad in almost as long. 

Well, I guess I should try to find a way to sleep... somehow...